I came to Ember on a grey, damp, and cold Saturday afternoon in December of 2010, feeling beyond low that day, discouraged by what life was dishing out to me, well, for most of my years on this planet up to that point. I almost turned back as I was already late for the class, but something called to me to walk through the door. The owners, Jeff and Margaret, were behind the counter and were so kind to me in the midst of my tardiness and probably unbeknownst to them my teetering on the brink of a full on meltdown in every sense of the word. They made me feel welcomed and calm, which was what I needed that day more than anything I think I had needed up to that point in my life. Their gentle and compassionate spirits let me know I could finally feel safe to let that guard down that my ego had been building up for those twenty-eight years. Class began and I thought the breathing was a little funny, but I went with it. Jeff helped to guide me through the poses keeping me centered and focused despite the fact that I was highly unnerved by the heat. He let me know that it was okay to come down to my mat and rest if that was what my body was telling me, he let me know I didn’t have to keep fighting myself, and that taught me about letting go of my ego more in that hour and a half than all of my other hours of studying yoga principles have thus far. There is nothing to prove, things really are perfect in that place between the two extremes of ecstasy and suffering, that space is where you can reconnect, redirect and grow. Ember and all of the teachers there have given me a sense of transcendence from everything I thought I knew about who I was. I am still learning and evolving so much and feel so grateful that my true path on this journey of life really started when I walked through those doors, beaten down and hardened, into one of the literally hottest and most uncomfortable experiences of my life, but for the first time the most real experience. Little by little my walls crumbled. I didn’t talk much at first to my fellow yogis, but overtime I started to trust in people again and I found a group of extended family at Ember that have given me more hope, love, and compassion than they may be aware of and for that I will always feel at home there. To say that Ember changed my life for the better is an understatement, but I nonetheless will continue to let people know how beneficial this practice can be. That is why I am in my teacher training there now under the guidance of John Merideth, who I had the wonderful experience of practicing under for the first time last summer and who has also pushed me to go deeper within, both on the mat and in my life outside of the studio. By learning to teach yoga through the training program I want to spread the life transforming peace and compassion that I received when I walked through the doors of Ember over a year and a half ago to others so that they can be more excited about what this amazing world has to offer them and what they have to offer it in return. Thank you to my Ember family, I love you all!
-Jessica |
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